I’m usually a relatively calm person. I’ve even become a somewhat optimistic person over the years. However, I have those few moments of extreme anxiety and fear – like this morning, as I rode up the hill to work, while admiring the peaceful city view still blanketed in a warm, pink hue from the sunrise, I had this sudden worry about what if our country entered a war? What if we got bombed? And then I thought, well, worst case scenario – we die. But then I worried, well maybe that might not be the worst case – maybe surviving a war and the struggles and horrors that come with it can be worse than a quick death?
Such moments of worry and anxiety are not frequent, luckily, but I feel that above worry is becoming more valid each day with the current events.
Then I have worries and panic attacks about what if or when mom and/or dad becomes really ill? Dies? How do we handle that? I usually have to stop myself before my mind snowballs itself into an all out panic attack.
Do you ever have moments of fear or worry?